Since I've Began

Since the time I have begun blogging, it is clear to see what people search for when looking up things on Google. My short stories had decent views when they were first published, however there has been one subject that always get the most attention. Self harm. Suicide. Death. These subjects, as the titles of some of my posts have proven, get many views. Most of my posts see between 6-10 views. The "Life or Death" post saw a rise of around 100 views, which is a huge difference. Not to mention my painful/die rhyme had an upwards of 30 views. It is so easy to see the majority of what people search for in this day in age. Maybe we're all just sad, desperate, and lonely. Maybe we want to escape this cruel reality and venture off to a land where, in reality, our eyes will be shut, underground. I know this feeling all to well. My hopes of changing myself are slim and it could be said that I already have "One foot in the grave." I'm not suicidal anymore, however I still do have deep, dark thoughts which plague my existence. Maybe someday all of this will end and things will be better. If there is anything called "good" in this toxic society.