Thank You

Thanks to all the people who have been viewing my blog recently
I've noticed that after I post something, within minutes, there has been 6+ views
To me that is an accomplishment and I'm glad to see continuous people viewing
It would be amazing if someone actually commented
But it's nice to see you nonetheless
Thank you
-Jordan

Alone Time

This is another time when she requested to be alone and of course I'll allow that, I know people need to be alone, but I wish she'd talk about it up front instantly. This would allow me to help her rather than her sit in a pit of sorrow attempting to remove whatever pain it is from her mind by playing Osu!. I'd rather he straight up say what's on her mind so that I could help her. Maybe I'm just being insensible to her thoughts and actions. But one thing I wish I could always know is "What is wrong?" because if I knew the answer to that question then I could comfort her to the best of my abilities, but messaging me saying you need time alone only scares me, it worries me, and pains me to think about whats wrong, and if this is just sounding like I'm crazy, well, it's because I tend to worry more than I should and end up over exaggerating the image in my head of what's going on rather then envisioning the reality.

In Silence

"Why can't you just sit here and enjoy my company in silence?"
Because, sitting here makes me think about things I'd rather not remember or go deeper into.

Why?

Sometimes life is unfair, unjust and it may continue to be like this for a very long time. But maybe, if you're lucky, life will be come fair and balance out all the bad things that have happen. I always remind myself of this when I think of death, because this is the only belief keeping me alive.